Feelings

Other people always tell us the same thing

They say that time will heal all things

We used to love each other

Up until the day that you left, you walked out of my sight

Time is just a comforting word, time is a deceiving word

It just keeps turning things around

Time never knows

The longer, the more it emphasizes what’s in my heart

The more painful everything is

And it’s still in my heart

All it can do is to comfort me, to make me know that time will make us forget all things

But from what has passed, I still haven’t forgotten..

The same image that still lingers on and haunts me

It is the image of you leaving, you walked out of my sight

I don’t see time stopping you and bringing you back

I count the days and nights that have passed

But the faster or slower time passes by, the harder it is for me to let u go

The more I do for you

The more it seems like it is all useless

Just this, I can understand that you see him as if he is the ocean

As for me, I am just the bed of sand that you walk on across

But I want you to know no matter when ever you are tired, out of energy and lost

Sunk in the middle of the ocean….

You still have my love, I will support you

I am the sand floor under the ocean

On the floor, I will look up

I’ll still wait for you like before

For a day when you are heart-broken

Because he left

You probably see me smiling, laughing all the time.

You probably think that I am leading a happy life as though I have no problems.

But who will know if I am truly happy deep inside.

The truth is, today my heart is still the same as before.

It still hurts till this day, my tears flow when I try to sleep.

I used to have you all the time, I don’t know what will I do now.

How long will this hurt last? When will I be able to come to terms with it? How long must I endure this pain?

From the day that you left, life goes on for me. Perhaps I will meet lots of people, but I still cannot forget you.

Irregardless of how many times love will come my way, I cry because of you.

It always hurt me because I still find you in my heart.

You are still in my heart, when can I forget you?

How long must I suffer like this? I do not want to end up like this till the day I die

- Written in 2005-2006 -

Secretly suppressed the sensitivity deep within me.

Do you know that I felt that our relationship is ambiguous?

How’s that, I don’t know. The appearance seems like we’re together.

But I don’t think it is more than that of ordinary people.

You told me how you admire somebody else.

Like as if you don’t know my feelings all along. That’s painful.

Sometimes I’ll also suspect.

I need to be sure. Actually, what is our relationship?

I am the last person to know what is going on about you.

Every time I phoned you, I held my breath for a long time.

The eyes’ expression when we met, it’s like you and I are just friends. And then whether I’m your lover or not? In reality are we in love?

Whichever days when we don’t meet, would it be like you’re missing something?

That I still suspects that whether I’m your lover or not? In reality are we in love?

When someone asks, how should I answer them? I’m confused about who am I, stone, tree, or lover?